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Real smile comes from within. :)
Don't frown, because you never know who's falling in love with your smile.


Buongiorno


Buongiorno means Hello! in Italian. Welcome to my land.
I don't know what you can benefit from here but if you don't mind me sharing my own perspectives about life, you are always welcome to leave your footprints here.

As the title per say, I do believe that real smile comes from within. Hence, don't frown because you will never know who's falling in love with your smile.

Smile :-)

stupid or gungho
Tuesday, September 29, 2009

I. attended. workshops. from. 10. to. 7.40pm. today.
This. is. call. stupid. or. gungho?


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The phlegmatic-melancholic
Monday, September 28, 2009

I read from Ai's blog. Hence I have an exact copy paste from catholicmatch too :P

The phlegmatic-melancholic is introverted (though less so than the melancholic-phlegmatic), which means that his deep emotions and anxieties tend not to be clearly expressed. They tend to react extremely slowly when confronted by antagonism or strong emotions. They are personable, quiet, and gentle. They value harmonious relationships. When you are first entering a relationship with a phlegmatic-melancholic, you may be struck by how easy-going and agreeable they are, but be aware that they are not revealing the depth of their emotions to you. They are deeply sensitive and value harmony and high ideals within a relationship. As a result of his delayed and sometimes dull response, a phlegmatic-melancholic will be slower to speak out, tempted to procrastinate, and reticent. They may appear – or believe themselves -- at times to be “lazy.” At times when the melancholic aspect dominates, he will have plenty of time in which mull over in his mind what his response should have been. He may become easily offended (though he may not reveal this to you) or discouraged. The phlegmatic attentiveness to relationships, and to getting along and keeping the peace, will “take the edge off” some of the melancholic tendency to perfectionism and critical judgments of others. On the other hand, because he may be more easily offended, he may want to be critical of others yet hesitant to confront directly. The dominance of the phlegmatic temperament may also drive the melancholic proclivity to order and neatness out of the picture.

If you are a phlegmatic-melancholic, you will show a cooperative spirit and a desire to please, and will value harmonious relationships. You are particularly gifted in teaching, mediating among groups, and at counseling individuals. And though yours isn’t the most dynamic temperament, your lack of defensiveness, calmness under pressure, and gift for mediation in critical situations can make you a very effective servant-leader, one who is willing to roll up his sleeves and work along with those he leads by example.

This temperament combination can face at times a greater challenge to his confidence than other temperaments (especially the choleric or sanguine). For this reason, when you are facing a major challenge or have been given a multi-faceted and demanding project, it will be absolutely critical for you to maintain your level of energy and motivation — not to mention your prayer life-- to complete the project. You will want to anticipate the way your moods can get you off track, and take concrete steps to maintain accountability in order to remain focused and energized throughout the task. Motivational tapes, exercise and a healthy diet, spiritual guidance, and a strong sacramental life will be critical. You will also need to maintain your focus on the big picture at all times, and not be distracted by the “urgent” demands of the moment, or by what other people may ask of you. To this end, it is always wise to seek regular professional, personal, and spiritual guidance from qualified individuals. In order for the phlegmatic temperament to achieve success and reach his goals, he should always work with a motivational program that provides structure, inspires confidence, and ensures accountability.

If you are phlegmatic-melancholic, it’s likely that you are a bit more upbeat than the melancholic-phlegmatic, a little less introverted, more trusting, slightly less moody, more generous with your time, and a more gracious host. You will rarely find yourself angry (though your feelings may be easily hurt), forgive more readily, and do not hold onto hurts in the same way that a more dominantly melancholic temperament would. You are compassionate, sensitive, caring, and tend to gravitate to the helping professions. You are a patient and caring teacher. You are not as “perfectionist” as a pure melancholic, and generally struggle with organization, planning, and a tendency to procrastinate. You find it difficult to set limits or turn someone down who asks a favor of you; you may be especially drawn to volunteer or missionary work, the apostolate, or other works of mercy. Though very generous, you may find it difficult to set priorities or limits. Your phlegmatic side makes it hard to say “no” – although you really want to. Sometimes your generosity can result in not enough time to “get organized,” be prepared, or to relax. Burn-out and feeling overwhelmed may result.

If your temperament is phlegmatic-melancholic, for a better understanding of your temperament it is recommended that you read the full descriptions of the phlegmatic and melancholic.

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Sunday, September 27, 2009

Wedding is a significant event for two. It takes two to tango. When you decide to walk in alone, you must face those fears and challenges all by yourself. You are afraid because you aren't prepared. Your mind is blank because you have no idea how does the inside look like. Hence, Mandy Kok, learn your lesson and get fully prepared for next year's.

What is the feeling of getting to meet a guy who was my first crush in a friend's 21st birthday party after 9 years?

It's a kind of happiness that can only be self-defined. There's no chemistry, no funny feeling in the stomach, but you tend to look for him everywhere. I still adore his intelligence, his knowledge, his speaking tone, his carefulness, and his directness. This is the type of guy I am looking for. A guy who is more knowledgeable, smarter than me; a guy who would appear like a senior to me and is able to help me with my assignments and work; a guy who will be able to lend me his shoulder; decisive yet not trying to control, caring yet not over protective, cool yet not overly quiet, clean cut but not overly perfect.

I am not daydreaming. This guy does exist and we met after 9 years. How much I wished that we'd get into the same secondary school. How much I wished that we'd enrol into the same university or college just so that we could continue from where we stopped. It's all just because I didn't get to met such a capable "senior" like him ever then.

A friend planned to get married at the age of 21st and she did. A friend planned to get the S University at the age of 19 and her dreams came true. What about me?

I am only aware that even if I am able to travel back in time, I will make the same choice again. I have no regrets.

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Grooming & Fashion.
Saturday, September 26, 2009

I forgot how did I get here... It's all about grooming and fashion tips, by Esther Ku, the owner for Culture Couture

For Men *click*

For Women *click*

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Sugar overloads
Thursday, September 24, 2009

Ms Bloggy wants to cheer up. Hence some recent photos here...


Hibiscus fountain in front of Pavilion


Rawrr!!!


The Sister craved for a slimming dessert @ MOF


Bad camwhore skills.


@VIP toilet.
I ain't kidding. There are only toilets for two.


One word. Cute!


I'm gonna catch You!!!


It's really really small @ Bentong, Pahang.


Clay facial wash. Bagus!

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思念
Wednesday, September 23, 2009

感情需要培养
爱是被经营的

I am worried.
I am afraid.
I am not prepared.
I don't know how to get prepared either.

生离死别
是注定吗?

我只能量力而为
我只能为您祈祷

我 真 的 害 怕 会 失 去 您

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'm gonna curse.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Willingness. to. care.
The heart to care.

Are you insane?!!!

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this.is.what.i.call.achievement
Monday, September 21, 2009

I can cook carbonara spaghetti for 10 servings.

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be courage.
Sunday, September 20, 2009

awww. I am getting rewards for getting an A-. I love you Papa! I love you too, Mama <3

I just bragged about it but it's a lovely post after all. For those who scored well, congratulations. For those who are did not obtain a satisfied score, be strong and be courage k? Gambateh! Fighting!

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burst into tears.
Friday, September 18, 2009

I think this is the N time I burst into tears unexpectedly. Can I blame the weather?

It's those unexpected that make me so.

Conversation with Mr K was unexpected. Conversation topic surrounding my granny was unexpected.
Burst into tears unexpectedly, without doubt is unexpected.

Hair cut was unexpected. The new look was unexpected.
Burst into tears unexpectedly, without doubt is unexpected.

Phone call from Mr K was unexpected. Conversation topic was unexpected.
Burst into tears unexpectedly, without doubt is unexpected.

ERB feedback is unexpected. ERB approval without conditions is unexpected.
Burst into tears unexpectedly, without doubt is unexpected.

Released result of thesis proposal was unexpected. Thesis result was unexpected.
Burst into tears unexpectedly, without doubt is unexpected.

Whether it is tears of sadness or tears of joy, they are all jumbled up. All in all, today is a day full with unexpected.

p/s: I love blogging using email posting <3

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Testing email posting

Will you stand by me?

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Thursday, September 17, 2009

Mandy is doing great.
Tune down. Laid back. Relax.
Let's discuss together as an adult.

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Just so you know.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I came online since 3pm. Only Master Coach Dev talks to me until now. It's 7.10pm. Where are all my kawans you might ask. Such is life.

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I will stand by you.
Sunday, September 13, 2009

"Life deals each of us a different set of cards and out of all of us there's no doubt that you received the toughest hand of all." - Rosie's Dad in Cecelia Ahern's Where Rainbows End, p.343
How often do you get to hear your granny telling you about her own story? I am very fortunate to have one. I get to know how much my grandpa loved my granny though they are already 40 years apart. I get to know how attractive my granny used to be back then and how many guys did go after her. I get to know how much my granny was being pampered when she was still a girl. I get to know how difficult my granny's life is after the death of my grandpa. I get to know how much disappointment she has over a child of her who cares only about her money. She knows what's going. That's why she protests. She yells... She cried. I cried. We cried.
"Stay strong," that's what my granny said. I am proud watching her shone through the tough times. I am still proud of her. I will protect her with all my strength.

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Stand by Me - Shayne Ward

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M4Mi_1Fngmk

Nothing's impossible
Nothing's unreachable
When I am weary
You make me stronger
This love is beautiful
So unforgettable
I feel no winter cold
When we're together
When we're together

[chorus]
Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

When day turns into night
I look into your eyes
I see my future now
All the world and its wonder

This love wont fade away
And through the hardest days
I'll never question us
You are the reason
My only reason

Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

I am blessed
To find what I need
In a world loosing hope
You're my only believe
You make things right
Everytime after time

Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

[repeat chorus]

Stand by me
No more darling I want you by my side
I want you hear with me

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3 in 1 in 3 mins
Saturday, September 12, 2009

Mandy says:
If only they don't invent 3 in 1, i might not be drinking coffee so often. Imagine if we are still relying on making coffee without a coffee maker, we might not make one for ourselves and we will still visit coffee house, coffe shop, then most of them won't close shop today
Poison Ivy says:
true
but this is how life works
This is a conversation chat history between Ivy and me after making myself a cup of 3 in 1 coffee. It took us only 3 minutes to make a cup of 3 in 1 coffee.

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"even if it's fake, as long as it carries memories, some people will treasure it just like the real thing" - unknown

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"Experiment"
Friday, September 11, 2009

I know I blog a lot recently but I just can't help it. That also explains why I removed my cbox earlier so that I won't have to bear with any further complains from anyone. That is only one of the many reasons why I removed my cbox though. Anyway, it's not important and it has now back to its original shelter because Michael have requested for it to stay there even though it might be mushroom-ing sooner or later.
Anyhow, my main purpose of typing this post is not to explain those. I explored something again in the noon while I was craving for food. I think it is a carry over effect. Because I managed to brew nice cup of coffee without using a coffee maker in the morning, I sorta convinced myself that I could come out with something innovative and eatable too.
Hence, I came out with something called pasta salad. It sounds grand but it's only pasta mix with Italian dressing. You might ask how on earth could I come out with such weird mix and match. I wanted to cook fried rice at first. but the brother stole the kitchen and that gave me enough time to set a second crave - pasta. You know when you are cooking just enough for yourself, especially something like pasta, you will get headache over what type of pasta sauce you want. Prego tomato sauce? ewww. I like carbonara but it's hard to get the correct measurement for one serving. Laziness kicks in at the same time and you will start to think of anything that might goes with pasta. I even thought of jam -__-
Anyway, final decision was italian dressing. I went googled before I started my "experiment" though. Yea. Every now and then you could just google to create minimal risks :P Guess what? There are indeed some weird people over another side of the world who have the same crazy thoughts as me. hahaha! Their recipe and procedures are almost the same as the one I had in my mind! Fabulous! There it goes. I grabbed some remaining fettuccine, appropriate amount of penne, and a small piece of chicken breast into a medium pot of boiling water. Add some salt in it and continue boiling. The chicken breast cooked faster than the pasta hence must take it out before continue boiling the pasta until it is fully cooked. I hate penne. It takes forever to cook. Hence if you do have a choice, don't cook penne when you are superb hungry.
I don't remember how long I took to get the pasta fully cooked. When the pasta is cooked, strain and shift them to a clean mixing bowl with the sliced chicken breasts on top. What's next? Pour in italian dressing and mix them together. I don't remember how much I poured but pandai-pandai lah. It's sour anyway.


As usual, my final product is not tempting at all. I added some sliced cheddar cheese in the pasta and it actually taste better. You can give it a try if you want. My brother, on the other hand, who always spoil my final product, went and add chili pepper on it. I don't know how does it taste like but you may also give a try :P All in all, if only you trust me enough that my recipe will work, you will find this post useful. Otherwise, I hope you'd enjoy reading :):):)

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sensual coffee.

I brew my own coffee without using the coffee maker for the first time! It's not as nice as the one Betsy made for us the last time but drinkable :P
How did I make it? I googled and found it on Yahoo! Answers.
Take a medium size pot.
Put water in it. - several cups (I put 2 1/2 cups of warm water)
Put coffee in it - a couple of tablespoonfuls. (I put 4 tablespoon full. siao I know)
Boil water with the coffee in it to taste. (I boiled for less than 3 mins for I think my coffee is gonna burn)
Strain in a strainer or gently drop the coffee from the side. (this is exhaustive)
Called mountain coffee - what a lot of people did before their were coffee makers.
It turned out to one cup full of coffee only. The aroma is not strong enough but considering the amount of coffee I took to brew, I drank only half cup of it. I am afraid I can't sleep for the next few days okay?!!! It's a little sour. I think I over boiled it :( But it is smoother than the McD's. Yea. The coffee I used for brewing is Boncafe's Arabia coffee. I didn't add anything to my coffee. It is ichiban de for a beginner :):):) This is called self fulling prophecy :P
The remaining of the coffee? Wasted. My mom went and heat it because she claimed the drink is too cold to add in sugar and milk. My brother then added one tablespoon full of condensed milk and don't know how many spoons of sugar inside. It turns out as a shit water and he scolded me! Heart pain :( R.I.P. Mr. coffee.


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Do you know what's worth fighting for?


Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul

Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms, give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky, you and I
##I have my own interpretation towards 21 guns. Hence it explains my addiction towards this song. What about you?

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plainly lovely, ain't it?
Thursday, September 10, 2009

Blog shop owners like to deal with me. *I made payment without negotiation and is within 12 hours after putting orders.
"Yeay! :)
Am glad your friend loves it.. hehe :)
It was nice dealing with you..

Thanks!
Have an awesome possum day! :)"
Not everyone likes me but people I know take me for who I am. I sincerely thank everyone of you for whatever role you play in my life - a granny, a father, a mother, a brother, a sister, a friend, a best friend, a girl friend, a counsellor, a career advisor, a coach, a consultant, an advisor, a supervisor, a lecturer, a tutor, a mentor, a financial planner, a fashion advisor, a shopping partner, a lunch date, a movie date, a yumcha kaki etc. Well, sooner or later I will announce my boyfriend :)
On a different note, the mom and I were discussing about 090909 yesterday night. I told her I prefer 101010 over 090909. She said, "If you are getting engaged at that time, I would love to take you back as my daughter."

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don't wait!!!
Wednesday, September 9, 2009

It feels good to have done 09 significant things on the 090909 since 1am. Being honest to yourself; speaking out what's in your heart; having him or her by your side to read or listen to what you have to say; it feels really good. I have accomplished all my desires and wee~ I could continue my journey! :):):)
Certain changes in life are unavoidable. Granny getting ill, parents getting retired, cousins getting married, sibling getting scholarships, childhood friend getting pregnant, high school friend getting promotion, college buddies getting attached... all these example of changes might occur throughout our life span. People around us will change across time, we will change too. Adapting to those changes, working on those changes that affects you significantly, at the same time not forgetting the supports and the relations between you and these lovely people; it will eventually creates rainbow in your life.
Conclusion? Speak from your heart, don't let the fear hold you back, give a try or else you might regret :):):)

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not knowing why.

I am so free these days. That is perhaps a good source of externalization to explain what I just did to exercise my brain and my heart.
I am expecting something I ain't expecting. again.
You said I know. I don't know.
I know? I don't know.

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grumble mumble.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009

I don't like people looking at me when I buy dried beans from their shop. I mean it's not that they cannot look but not that kinda continous look which makes me feel extremely uncomfortable. I don't want this guy keeps surrounding me while doing his work and sing the song "月亮代表我的心" to the extend where I can hear him. I don't like the Mom pretending as the bystander, knowing just enough to watch and laugh.

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unexpected.
Monday, September 7, 2009

While I was taking ktm home earlier, I met an elegant Malay lady who brought along two daughters with her. She speaks decent English. She asked if I can do her a favor - to help take a photograph of them as this is the first time she brought the girls to take the ktm. To be frank, I am impressed with the mother's thought of bringing the children to experience something out of their comfort world. I want to do the same thing to my future kids as well.
Then the train, which was delayed for half an hour, came. We went into the same unit and it was, as usual, fully packed with people. The two little girls were squeezed by the crowds. Not even the mother could protect them. Well, I did something unexpected. I hold a guy's backpack, which kept hitting the little girl's head, and said, "I am sorry but there is a little girl behind you. I will appreciate if you shift your position." The mother said thank you. I smiled and tried to trace back what I have just did.
I did another unexpected thing back home. Craft work.

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别人说 思念是一种病

紧紧抱着您的那一刻,我的心紧绷着。
我的不舍,您看不见。
很安慰您记得我的名字,也记得我是谁。
很安慰您在我紧紧地握住您的手同时,
您也紧紧地握住我,安然的入睡。
很安慰您信任我对你的爱。
很安慰您没赶我走,而是让我一直陪在您身边。

我看见您的任性,也看见您的无理取闹。
虽然我并不喜欢您的任性,但这也显得您可爱的一面。
虽然您每次每次,都没好气的、爱理不理的
但您每五至十分钟就会问咱们吃了没。
而每问起您呢,您都会毫不犹豫地说您吃了。
明明就是还没吃,明明就是肚子饿
偏偏就硬称自己很饱。
我佩服您一肚子气能拒食
同时我也讨厌您让担心您的人伤心
为何要折磨自己而不好好爱惜自己呢

我恨自己无法无时无刻陪在您身旁
我恨自己无能与您互相交换耳朵
我希望是我代替您去听见那些骚人的声音
我希望是我代替您去承受那夜夜难眠的苦衷
我希望是我代替您去承受那日日夜夜寂寞 难耐的心情

为何您每件事都要自己扛
为何您每发生什么都怪自己
难不成都把我们当透明了吗
让我们保护您、呵护您 可以吗
希望您早日康复
身心安康

我爱您
想念您的这一刻,我很想紧紧地抱着您不放


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旅行需要目的地,但流浪需要终点
Saturday, September 5, 2009

藤井树的创作更上一层楼了。他那 [流浪的终点],散文式的小说,深深触动了我的心。他提起了Sigmund Freud,提起了Eric Fromn,也提起了徐志摩。原来 Sigmund Freud 曾在五年内写了四百多封情书给他的情人;原来 Eric Fromn's Behind Arts 里注说:

不成熟的爱是 : 因为我需要你,所以我爱你。
而成熟的爱是 : 因为我爱你, 所以我需要你。

原来徐志摩生命里有三个挚爱;原来徐志摩那句

"我将在茫茫人海中寻找我唯一之灵魂伴侣,得之, 我幸;不得;我命"

是如此的感人;原来。。。
我最喜欢藤井树在 [流浪的终点]写说:

"[建筑]两个字之所以是一个动词而不是名词,其实跟[人]有关。除了自然界的一切,这世上所有的东西都是人去建筑起来的,虽然金字塔有外星人来作弊的嫌疑。不过盖有形的东西对人类来说一点都不难,但是盖无形的东西就比盖有形的东西难上几百倍了。"

"例如?" "人际关系,也就是我们常说的两个字: 感情"

"爱情是 happened,感情是 built。"
"我以为我找到了我人生的方向" "于是流浪,于是漂泊"

"我的决定流浪,同时也决定了让你一个人在这里流浪"

"我以为我可以不想念你"

"经过这段漂泊,我才发现,最在乎的,其实已经在原地等待很久了"

"我终于明白,旅行需要目的地,但流浪需要终点"

"我不再需要流浪的意义,我需要的是流浪的终点"

"终点,也是新的起点"

"因为,你,就是我的终点。"
"很久很久以后,终点在哪里,我就在哪里。"
你告诉我吧!我怎能对藤井树(的书)无动于衷呢? 那太对不起自己了吧!真的很想把整本书的内容抄下来给你们,只可惜我不能这样做。Sharon, 我可以借你看。 Ivy, I wanna read this book to you.

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Emergency declared.
Friday, September 4, 2009

It was just two days ago I mentioned that it was the time where waves started to travel in shallowing water in the offshore zone. Indeed I concentrated too much on the wave length and missed out the wave height. The wind is reinforcing bigger waves to come. The condition is no longer predictable. My papan boat might not be able to handle it anymore. It is breaking.



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Go Let it Out
Thursday, September 3, 2009

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bloat

Dear Ms Bloggy,
Why is it that I don't have a new semester feeling? It's alike nothing special besides getting to see the long lost gang again. and to me it seems like today is not the first day of the semester. Did I just mess up internship, thesis, and classes all together? Going to college at 10 is alike an everyday basis since July. That's more like it.
I still cannot shower at night. I don't think I can ever do that.
The amount of content I am talking to you today is even more than the amount that I am talking to my friends. Can you imagine that?
I am still not use to my circle of friends started to engage in romantic relationships. Could it be that I am overly dependent on them?
I am strong. I know how to take a break now. I won't let myself to break off so easily anymore.
As for now, I am procrastinating. I don't want to work on my erb. It's alike a never ending work. They are never going to be satisfied of whatever I do. I give up.
Just tonight. I will behave tomorrow.
Do you know that until today I am still very curious of why is he here and not UK? why psych and not dentistry?
The one who makes me feel guilty can still continue to use me till God knows when. Could that be self-fulfilling prophecy?
All I want now is to hug my granny tight. I miss her.
Daddy wished me all the best through sms for the first time. I feel loved, energetic, and am motivated to take the challenge tomorrow.
I feel better now. I am smiling.
Thank you Ms Bloggy.
Love,
Mandy


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sea waves.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009

If I am gonna illustrate my current conditions using the different lengths of the sea waves, I think this is the time where waves travel in shallowing water in the offshore zone.

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我的精神食粮

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01.09.09
Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Today is 1st September.
First thing first. I got full refund for the business subject dropped. If you haven't get to know what was going on, I was actually having a timetable clash and I was busy dealing with subject-drop and fee refund appeal for two freaking weeks. Because the dept won't be offering I/O next Jan, I would need to drop this business subject so as to graduate accordingly by next April.
Second list on hand. I skipped work and went grocery shopping. With a great company - my dear Ai Li. It just happened that this morning I had a sudden urge to get a partner to shop with. I made a call, this sweet lady decided to pick up my call and agreed to hang out with me. We then headed to MV together for brunch and did grocery shopping later on. Let me repeat that today is the first day of September. I spent 50 bucks on groceries, 40 bucks on toiletries, and 40 bucks on books. Before you change your perception of me, let me defend myself first. I spend on toiletries only every 3 months; I spend on groceries every start on semester (to prepare for the sleepless night); and I spend on books only every Aug/Sept of year (which I have no idea why. Likewise, last year Aug, I spent half of my salary on books). I still have 40 bucks debt for two online book subcriptions which I haven't make payment yet. That however, I already have one who is willing to sponsor for it.
By looking at my financial situation now, I don't think I can self-sponsor a haircut this coming Thurs. The Mom offers to sponsor me but that I will need to wait till she has the desire to get a haircut herself, which only God knows when. So that's about it.
Special remarks: all my remaining allowance will be spent strictly on food for the remaining of the month. Girls, please take note of that. Thank you :)
New semester with only 2 days worth of classes, here I come! <3<3<3
*random*
Sometimes, I have the thought that I am born to be pampered.

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f.l.i.r.t.

I am blogging continuously.
This blog of mine is alike a wall to me now.
I like speaking my heart out to her because she has no choice but to let me scribble :D
Am I a flirt to you?
Have I flirt with you today?
Just out of curiosity. Am I flirtatious?
It's just that few close guy friends started to ask me to stop flirting with them some other days. Then I started to wonder whether I did go overboard. I like to speak my heart out to a few people. There are girls and boys. I treat these humans a little different from others. I set no boundaries calling them "dear", asking them for a "date", saying "I love you", "miss you", "hugs", even "muakss" to them. Perhaps I am too used to those terms myself to the extend where I didn't take care of their feelings. Anyway, I appreciate that some of them did tell me to stop doing so because they ain't feeling comfortable with that. Hence, if you are reading this as well and if you are also experiencing the same situations as them, feel free to notify me. I would appreciate if you notify me about these and I will make adjustments for that. No harsh feelings. Promise. :D
Few more hours to breakfast. I am hungry again. How to puasa like that?
xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I pray for joy. that she will be happy and smile from time to time.
I pray for love. that she will continue to love and be loved by everyone.
I pray for health. that she will be healthy, be safe and sound.
Thank you Betsy. Thank you Chun Feng. :)

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