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Friday, February 29, 2008

Feedback
...encourages you to be a better person
...helps you improve
...tells that you are not neglected

- Feedback is the foot of champion (Morais, 2008)

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Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Love has taught me how to lie...
Studies have taught me how to procrastinate..

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Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Do you know that when we attempt to save more, we actually saving the same amount, or even less???

Don't understand??? See.. When you attempt to save money, you will spend less right??? Then, you will only do a little shopping... Consider everyone do the same as well... for sure those companies have to cut down production (because less and less people are buying) as well as the employees' salary... This might affect you also as you might be either an employer or an employee... at the end of the day, with your limited income, you will have even little to save and little to spend... Can you see the connection now???

So what??? Go spend your money now so that I have money to spend!!! I guess that's the greatest knowledge I have learnt through macroeconomics lecture so far.... it has a theory name called the paradox of thrift... how was my macro paper??? Don't ask...

btw, please don't be afraid if you see me walking like a penguin these days yea... till then cheers!!!

Oh yea... HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HUI YING!!! Love ya!!! :D

P/S: I wonder how's PSY204 ERB...

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Saturday, February 23, 2008

The moment I stepped into San Frans, I felt like getting a doppio... but then I looked at Ai Li... she knew I need her opinion... "I don't know....," she said... I turned to the Barista and asked his opinion... blended drinks? that will be a sweet one... latte is sweet as well... "She wants bitter coffee," Ai Li added... I laughed, everyone laughed... "Give me an iced Cappuccino," I said... Barista said he will make my iced Cappuccino a little more bitter than the usual ones... That's so nice of him... :D

I didn't regret for not choosing Long Black and Mocha... because I came to realize that Cappuccino is just what I wanted these days... Its rich espresso makes me express myself more than enough... yet it's because of the added milk the process is entirely comfortable & relax... there's no sweet escape... the sense of confidence is just there and no one can mess them up... that's it =)

Two midterm papers are done... presentation has over... The forms are finally submitted to the Ethics Review Board... Without my cliques, I guess I had gave up long ago... Thank you pals!!! I know all of us has been depressed over a period of time... & it's my fault for spreading the gloom around... let's pray that everything will go well after today....

By next week, two more midterm papers to go... one more ERB form to be completed...one literature review... gambateh!!!

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I know I torture coffee...

Sunday, February 17, 2008

I took a short black to make me strong on Valentine's Day... & it really works....

I got myself a cappuccino yesterday to get over unhappiness... but I cried again & again...

I choose a latte today to cheer myself up... yet I don't know whether because that's only a RM 1.60 iced latte, the process is running slowly...

Anyway, I am over it already... should I celebrate it with a long black/Americano or a mocha???

p/s: I'm not a coffee addict...

a short black - a single shot of espresso + water
a cappuccino - espresso + hot milk + milk foam
a latte or café latté - more milk compared to cappucino
a long black/Americano - double shot of espresso + water
a mocha - like latte but chocolate is added

written @5:23 PM 0 comments

I'm sorry if the previous post had offended you or made you worried... I know I do have a choice for not publishing that up but I just can't help it... I was unable to let it off though I had try to washed them away with tears that day... while in the library...

I know once a post is published, it will become public and accessible to everyone in the world... I don't really care how are people going to judge my writings, my life, my appearance and etc through my blog... This blog is about me... I'm sure that through this blog, you get to know more or partial about me, sort of knowing what do I concern, what has bothered me recently, how I spend my days etc., besides judging me...

To someone who I'm still care about,

I don't have a perfect personality or a perfect life either... I have flaws and I admit there're many... becoming a psychologist is my ambition & I'm working hard towards my goal all these years... by the mean of working hard I don't merely just study and memorize... I'm working hard to become a better person by applying what I've learned as well... no one understand themselves perfectly... those who have flaws or merely get to understand themselves doesn't mean that they can't study psychology... also, psychologists are not perfect human! You can't expect them to be prefect before they offer to help you to discover yourselves!

I understand what you have did is just merely for a friend... & I choose to believe that what you have told are true... I'm sorry for not being to able accept the deception you have made till today... It makes me distress... Yet I understand that you really meant what you have said... I appreciate your real intention and I will sure become a better person... I ain't making any promises to you... it is a promise to myself that I have to be real and live a better life ever... I know you don't like the way I do things including what I'm doing now... but this is me....Thank you for everything though you are not going to care anymore...

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there's a border...

Friday, February 15, 2008

Disclaimer: it's my blog and I'm free to write what I want... Read at your own risk...

This year's Valentine's Day was a memorable one... Thanks for giving me a big surprise & got me a meaningful present though I had insisted to stay at home that entire night...

To be frank, I don't really like the deception you & your friend set...Yet I still appreciate all the efforts you have put in all these days... Believe it or not, that deception had no effect on me at all... because I had promised myself to be a better kind soul since 27th Jan 2008, a day where I'm already prepared to called you out and admit all the faults that I had made... anyway, we meet our goals right? You're able to trap me finally & I get to speak it out after keeping it inside my heart for such long... I had the most comfortable sleep ever last night!!! Thank you very much :-)

Though there's already no use for me to clarify that I didn't fall into the deception you & your friend have planned, as you might have celebrated the victory with your dear friend out there... I guess I'm just doing it for the sake of getting attention here... I like people to sympathize me you see... you don't mind right since you ain't going to care & you ain't going to waste your time reading my so called attention-seeking blog......
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I'm fragile... I won't date with you if I don't love you... I won't break up with you as if it's just for fun... I broke up because I want to protect the fragile me... I know that equivalents to selfish... I admit I'm selfish but I'm not a cruel bitch that will turn someone into a subject for an unethical experiment till she feels frosty the whole night... Anyway, I ain't the one that every guy is willing to date with... I break people's heart frequently... I'm a full time attention seeker... a lousy liar that you cannot stand even for a second... a selfish fool & many more (to be completed by the two most unfortunate guy on Earth out there).

Don't fall in love with me if you don't want to be the 3rd fool!!!

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no life

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

I took 3 hours to go home today... Kelana Jaya line LRT delayed, bus delayed... then the rain pours on me though I'm just a few steps away from my house... why must they happened on me???

I don't know what to blog about de...
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okay... three things you have to know:-

I feel like dropping this semester... stress... stress... stress!!!
Stop asking me out on Valentine's Day... I'm going to stay at home right after 6pm...
I'm going to have my midterms and presentations starting next week... don't make me cekik you...

Bye!

written @10:33 PM 2 comments

Gong Xi Fa Cai

Friday, February 8, 2008

Happy Chinese Rat Year!!! :D

A few weeks before CNY, a cute little guest came to visit us and chew all our instant mee... the same happened 12 years ago as well... He ain't Stuart Little, Ratatouile, Mickey or Minnie Mouse... but a typical rat... I don't know whether it is just a coincidence or anything... they visit us only during the rat year... I should believe that they were here bring us good fortune??? :D

I had a memorable reunion dinner yesterday... what say you if I traveled all the way back to Bentong for dinner and back to KL at the same day??? I don't have a choice because there's no place I can sleep overnight now... Actually Bentong ain't that far from KL... it's just that I dislike travel... but it's worth for a reunion dinner with my dearest grandma, uncle, aunt, and cousins...

Way back to KL... which means after the extravagant dinner, we headed to Pizza Hut for supper!!! I seldom have fast food with my family... so as mamak stall, which to me it doesn't seem to be an okay place for a (my) family to hang around... We will only have many fast food and mamak during CNY... My relatives live quite far apart from each other... One in Klang another in Subang... there's no way for us to just fill our stomach will those carbonated drinks and oily snacks the whole day... Visit only two houses are more tiring than travel all the way back to Bentong... we always have to sacrifice something for more angpaus... :-(

Today, I came to realize that I have a grandaunt who is already 104 years old... we ain't close relatives and only visit her once a year... she is still strong as many old folks out there though her son aka my uncle, died of cancer last year... She is now living with my aunt who is an Indian... Believe it or not they are able to communicate well though my aunt only married to my uncle for not more than 5 years... I don't know how she is able to do that cuz I do have hard times listening to my grandma who always speak with her "Tang Shan" slank... still it's a joyful thing to be :D

My 10 year-old niece asked me a sensitive question today... she asked about my age... children just can't stop asking questions huh??? All this while, revealing my age doesn't seems to affect me at all... because 17s, 18s, 19s are ages that most people are proud of... don't you agree with me??? I stunned a while when she asked me... I want to say I'm 19 but I'm suppose to be 20 this year though I haven't celebrate my birthday yet... deep in my heart I love to say I'm 19 you know... maybe I should have gone with the instinct because I'm now fully distracted by my niece's reaction... what's wrong with you having a 20-year-old aunty??? Not that your 16-year-old aunt makes you feel better right??? Maybe I'm a lot more older than her that's why she huh/hah??? so loud??? What's in her mind huh??? I should've asked her why... See... study psychology cannot enable one to read people's mind... yet it encourages us to think positively... hmmm... I should assume that she admires me a lot & was curious about the approx. age for a little girl to grow up as a pretty young lady??? Please don't puke okay? Don't you young people ever have the thought of growing up faster & become like those pretty jie jie & handsome guo guo out there??? I dare you for saying no!!!

I'm going to Bentong tmr again for angpaus...

It's CNY, go grab for more angpaus people :D

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!

written @2:43 AM 2 comments

Boon Woei's birthday

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Second post of the day??? I came to realize that no one blog about Boon Woei's birthday... so as the birthday boy himself who haven't get the streamyx connection fixed...

Let the pictures do the talking... Credit to Ai Li & Betsy??? More on Facebook... :D

The birthday boy who kept telling us, "1st Feb is Federal Territory day & we must celebrate!!!"

Sing k in Neway was fun!!! We got an extra one hour for free :D

Who says one year older, one year wiser???

Happy Belated Birthday Boon Woei!!!

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CNY coming...

I come to realize that all my recent posts are somehow emo-ish... as I mentioned earlier... I'm completely exhausted... my days are filled with deadlines, deadlines & yea... deadlines... my planner tells me when ERB due... when CNY sales end... when CNY ends... when assignments due bla bla blah...

I know it's kinda weird for ppl to complain about CNY... we suppose to say great yay for CNY coming right??? Yea lar... Yay for more angpau & the gathering dinner... but not cleaning the house... decorating the house... baking the cookies... & CNY shopping.... I like shopping for no purpose... cuz even you didn't get to shop anything in the end of the day you won't go mad... you get my point???

Anyway... I'm no longer that stress anymore... cuz finally I had more than 12 hours of sleep... AND AND I had lots of avocado food!!! Ppl... do go One U jj's Sandwiches and grab for their avocado & turkey ham cheese toasties & their avocado yogurt drink!!! It's superb nice & healthy!!! Ai Li, thank you for your good sense of taste... & Hui Ying, you should regret for not trying them... :P still I'm really glad that we finally get to meet each other after such long!!! :D

Btw, I did something meaningful today... meaningful as in I finally get to complete a task this week.... I decorate a small section of my house... The decorations ain't too over right??? :D

For the past few days, I feel terrible for not able to get myself a comfy shoes and complete the ERB before CNY... that indirectly make me feel a full sense of accomplishment today even though it's just decorating the house... I'm sorry for kept quiet most of the time & didn't give you guys an appropriate smile these days... I'm really sorry pals!!!

On a random note... I found out that I had something cute in my house...

will you marry me???

I don't know how to dance...

aww... antique???

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